Why have I been so sad? Why do I cry watching clichéd American TV shows? Where has my motivation gone? What’s going on? Am I depressed again? Or maybe it’s something else… Something else? Maybe it’s July. And why is July significant? Well, it just so happens that in the month of July, two exhausting years ago, I got sick, and I didn’t get better. Read on
Tag Archives: PVFS
Hey There Kiddo, It’s OK
Recovering from CFS isn’t a matter of snapping your fingers and waking up all better; it’s a slow journey with many twists and turns. Given this, I need to cut myself some slack and realise that I’m looking after myself the best way I can. I almost need my own personal cheerleader telling me “awesome, right on, like totally freak me out!” Read on
Alarm Bells Ringing
Mayday Mayday Mayday! I am without power, crash approaching, arm your battle stations, this is not a drill. Oh dear, I’ve done too much, I knew I was pushing it but I was having so much fun so I decided to push through. Pushing through worked for me for 26 years, maybe it would again? Err, no. Read on
CFS Awareness Day
It’s CFS Awareness Day today people! I’m wearing blue (the CFS colour) and heading to the CFS Health Centre this evening to gather with other chronically fatigued warriors and find some solidarity. It won’t be a late night, we’re bringing blankets and pillows and it will be delightfully low-key. I’ll also be surrounded by people who 100 percent understand my illness. Yes! Read on
I can’t “do it mine own self” with CFS
This is me as a kid, an independent stubborn little tyke known to utter things like, “I do it mine own self” when confronted with something challenging and not wanting help from my parents. Not much has changed since then, I still want to do everything myself (group projects were an anathema to me!) Read on
Busy Being Not So Busy
Many people have told me that having chronic fatigue really teaches you a lot about yourself and how you view the world. For me, I think the biggest lesson I’ve learnt is stopping the glorification of busy in my life; getting off the treadmill and taking time to notice how I’m feeling. Read on
I accidentally went surfing…
Yep, that’s right, I, Snooze Mackenzie, CFS warrior and worrier, accidentally went surfing on Monday! What, did I trip and somehow find myself on a floating board in the ocean? Well, no, it was a decision I made, one that was fun, but one that freaked me out as well and has had me on the foam roller twice a day since! Read on
Less crappy bad days
There’s been a shift in my fatigued state over the last month in that the bad days are definitely better. By this I mean that they are getting less frequent and less severe, but they are also getting harder to deal with. Read on
Christmas with Chronic Fatigue
Well, it’s been and gone, the awesomeness that is Christmas. I’m a Christmas nut, I walk around tunelessly singing, bake constantly, plan my gift giving meticulously and spend hours gazing at our decorated Christmas tree, sniffing deeply to get that Christmasy smell. Read on
I slept properly last night!
I’m writing this after the first good night’s sleep I’ve had in a week and I feel like a completely different person. Woo hoo, sleep is the bomb. You’d think I get a lot of sleep, being chronically fatigued and all, but that’s one of the weirder parts of CFS in that you’re exhausted but find it hard to sleep. Read on
a snoozie life 